my search for TRUE LOVE

Night is still fresh for me…that’s why i chose this time again…After a rough chat with my close ones i m pretty much disturbed… 😦

what is love??? 🙂

not just love…i wanna know what is real love… ❤

Its been one and half years before…time is around 2 o clock…i was asleep in my hostel room alone…my phone rang…i reached to it and found it was from one of my close friend…i got worried and picked up…
“hey!!its me…today is her birthday…m in front f our gate dea..” he said…
“are you nuts!!what you doing here now??” i shouted at first…
Yeah! it was his girl’s birthday…i don’t know  whether i should say its her girl or not (coz she is now somebody else’s wife)…but for me she is her girl…at midnight he went her home and kept a gift (a wonderful bowl aquarium with gold fish… ❤ most lovely gift…) in front of her house and left…she never told she loves him…but he loved her…he came to know that she is engaged…he never cried…but surely heart broken…but still he found his love in her…the day she got married (just few months back) i got a message in my inbox…it was a usual one from him..it said
” its a good day dea..but a little sadness..i wish if she was mine…but i am happy that she is happy…may God bless her…nothing much…good night… 🙂 ”
i found tears in that smiley he gave me… Is this TRUE LOVE???

And moving to another one…she is a hindu and he is a muslim…they fall in love…everything went well till one day she texted me that her marriage is fixed with another man…she couldn’t resist her family…he can’t do anything…next week is her marriage…she is acting normal…he too…they still hopes any miracle will happen and God will make them one!!! What if God never???they don’t have an answer… Is this TRUE LOVE???

I met someone who ended up writing a novel about love and betrayal…(not Ravinder singh) …She found an art in her love and she recovered from the betrayal of her love through that art piece…so is it easy to cure a broken heart through writing???

And my bestie tells about fate when we talk about love…he fallen in love with a princess and he proposed at her home…they never agreed and he left her…she never said to him that she loves him…even she is wife of someone else today and we all went for the marriage and made masti…yeah!!! i support his view…he tried but she is destined to someone else…and for God’s sake that broken heart is behind some other pretty heart now!!! so, is this TRUE LOVE???

To the end…i saw someone crying for the one who never belongs to him…For the past so many years he loved her and she never said she love him or even she don’t love him…he still loves her and now the moment she got engaged he is acting like a kid…Am i wrong that i consoled my buddy for what he lost???am i wrong that i always supported him to get his love???am i wrong that i am happy to hear that one of my friend is getting married even she broke my best one’s heart???he never got her means that she betrayed??? Is this TRUE LOVE???

My every question ended up in one single shot…A call i had on a night…around 3 years back…
Our last talk…
“So…that’s it…I love you..but i can’t do it more…we can’t be together forever…so shall we move on with this decision???” his words were broken…
“Yeah!!! just move on…i couldn’t make my family sad…you too…take care of yourself!!!drive safe…” i said…
“is that all you wanna say???” he asked…
“yeah!!! i love you…you are special…and thanks for these wonderful journey of life…be happy always…call me for any need…hope you don’t have and i wish too so… ” i replied…
“So…love you…take care of your mom and dad…don’t cry…i cant bear those tears…bye…good night…i will miss you…”
“Miss you too…stay blessed…” i ended the call and broken into tears…

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Started blogging as a student. The posts were
mostly a sum up of growing from a teenager to
the one who can deal with life in any crisis. Now
a work-from-home mother of a special child
who have been writing her thoughts since 2010.
As the life goes on, there were road blocks in
keeping the page intact, but trying the best to
explain how life around is feeling inside my head.