The wait for easy!

I wish life was a little easier on me. I never wish for a detour but I want a slightly less bumpy rough path than this. Today I am sitting here with one of the many hardest days in my life thinking about where I went wrong. What made me this desperate human being who is feeling numb and lonely amidst a lot many people. I think I never made the choice. This has come to me like everything else came to me. The more I chose to be happy, the more I lost sanity in everything happening around me. I have never tried to control what is happening around me because I have realized far back that it never works that way. Once we reach a point in our life, tomorrow is not in our control. Maybe it is not the same for everyone. Lucky are the ones who have control over their lives. Cherish that.

I never wanted this loomed gloomy serious face of me. But I think like all the people passing 30s I am turning into that grumpy one I never wanted to be. My emotional avalanches are sometimes out of blue. I wish life was a little easier on me. I wish I have more energy to spend on this universe. More energy to spend on this life. And I wish I can find that somewhere in between this chaos. The chaos I never signed up for!

2 responses to “The wait for easy!”

  1. You’re not the only one who feels this! Everyone has to go through these ups and downs. I understand it is difficult to stay calm and positive when things do not work out. But at least we have a choice of how to take it ahead, isn’t it?

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Behind the words!

Started blogging as a student. The posts were
mostly a sum up of growing from a teenager to
the one who can deal with life in any crisis. Now
a work-from-home mother of a special child
who have been writing her thoughts since 2010.
As the life goes on, there were road blocks in
keeping the page intact, but trying the best to
explain how life around is feeling inside my head.

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